hello!im valerie^^like my blog?yeah i got a pretty crazy life going on haha but i love it:DD
就为了因为星期一会有口试来练一练自己的华文程度吧。不知道为什么就得自己的华文程度好像又退步了。今天决定来看一看自己的blog，和惊讶，原来我的blog也有人看的呀！不过蛮多留言使用马来语写的。去看了看他们的blog 不知道谁是真谁是假。一些是不同名字而一直在我的chat留言。一些却好像是真的不过又像是假的。 一个星期后就要考试了！真烦啊！不过在努力多一下下特长的假期就会来迎接我了！呵呵：D
Nah I won't translate that.hehe!
Anyways looking back at my past post about guys makes me laugh!!!
like it's crazy cause I have no idea why I even like them in the first place.
It feels good not to have a crush but a celebrity crush hehe
cause ya know you're not the only person who likes this guy
and thus there no fear at all to be embarrass about it~
Oh man I got a crush on FTI~
I'm I considered bad to like all 5 of em' and not sure who I am bias too
hehe the dumbest questions I ask myself.
But this Saturday(while technically it's Sunday already)has been really productive.
But I still can't get over the fact that exams will be knocking on my door in a week.
I'm just really hyped up for the holidays~woots
OHmYgee~(that was lame...)
I like KPOP~ I swore I never liked it
but then again I swear on many things and break the vows
not the really...serious...ones....
I blame my sister!!!!
Here's the chain. HELLO BABY SHINee->SHINee MVs->Maknae Rebellion->Dongho(U-kiss)->U-kiss MV(Man the group's name is a long sentence with a big bombastic word in the beginning)-> chef U-kiss->U-kiss Vampire->U-kiss on Music Bank->U-kiss poster hunting->back to maknae rebellion->Seunghyun(FTI)->FTI MV->FTI Variety shows(the included eng subs!!!!)->FTI interviews....and the cycle eventually goes on~
Okay coffee is not working for me now of days...still wanna sleep so good night~
i'm not prefect
i'm not pretty
i'm not the kinda of sweetie you claim you need
i'm just average
a normal girl about your age
the one you don't take notice
you just look and walk away
you say you're not my perfect dream girl
not really pretty yes
face it that's the truth
i'll never fall for you girl
it's quite obvious yes it seems
im too good for you~
boy that's your lost
one day you'll see the real~ truth
you lost your mind now
no i won't blame you~
it's not your fault you can't see all the beauty of this world
it's not your fault you can't get to know me anymore
it's not your fault no it's not your fault no
let me tell you straight it's your lost
wanna fight back now?
insanity,how i went crazy
hello wake up!you're not that good anyway
be a litte modest you're not the real jewel here
not a self-praised romeo too
no you don't charm all the ladies
no get back down to earth
cause in the end you're the only one that's suffering~
boy that's your lost
one day you'll see the real~truth
you lost your mind now
no i won't blame you~
it's not your fault you can't see all the beauty of this world
it's not your fault you can't get to know me anymore
it's not your fault no it's not your fault no
let me tell you straight now it's your lost.
here's a note to you
i won't fall for you
anymore~
once bitten and twice shy
so shy,no more
cause afterall
boy it's your lost
it's your lost now
you finally see the truth
you lost your mind once
sorry i can't help you
but it's not your fault you can't see all the beauty of this world
it's not your fault you wanted to let go on me~
you couldn't see it then
you won't regret it now
let me tell you straight
let me tell you straight
boy it's your lost
-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------oh i know sounds harsh.it's just a random poem/song i made up after finishing my romeo and juliet literature exam.felt shakespeare-ish.is it a description about romeo?em...well if you read act 1 of romeo and juliet you would know that romeo describe juliet as 'a rich jewel on an Ethpio's ear'(if i rmb the quote correctly).and romeo is self-praised well romantic guy...puts himself in a self-pity kinda light when rosaline doesn't give back that 'mutual feeling' romeo had for her.so yes i am saying this friend of mine is a self-praised romeo.sitting from a girl's perspective he thinks he is the jewel.basically what i wrote here is kinda true,what he said from his mouth and what i wanna say back but i have got no hard feelings against him i really still treat him as a friend.
今天试着用华语来表达自己，可能会有一点难度，但我觉得有一天一定需用到它来和更多人沟通。这样的写法好像泄漏了一些资料，很重要而需要保密的资料。今天不知为何，特别想你。每次有这种感觉，似我好想犯了一项大罪。现在打下这些字也感到有些惭愧。今天又特别想去看你的照片，还好还能控制自己，现在还对自己很满意^^反正你都不每天上网，我也开始看到你的坏了。我在你的旁边，你然我认识的你全都是假象。所然不想这样说但你给我的影像就是这样。在你旁边你对我特别好，当然是朋友对朋友的好，当时把你当成好友而已，你别误会！可是只没和你见面聊天几天，你好像变了另外一个人，我根本就不认识你……朋友啊，你去了哪里？我还以为我犯了什么错，我看问题是在你身上吧，这样说有好像没有人情味……你是个好朋友啦，没错，曾经喜欢过你，但看到你的坏，我也看不出你有欣赏的地方。但今天超想你，有时会希望没认识你，认识别人，永远不知世界上有你这个人，永远不只有你的存在。但认识也认识了，我没有后悔，能做你的朋友还蛮不错XD
i'll let destiny pick.i'll let fate decide.i'll take my chances.i'll take the risk.
it's seems like everythings' laid out for me
when i connect them,link and link.
whatever i see,whoever i met
yes i think that's destiny
whatever i like the person i love
i know it's fate.that's for sure
i'll let destiny pick.i'll let fate decide.i'll take my chances.i'll take the risk.
i'm pretty sure there's a reason why we meet.
cause after all that plannings i'm back to what it is
density became my directions and brought me to this foreign land
being here again,i felt kinda secure
i wasn't afraid,fearless i was.
i thought i'd control it,i thought i got the wand
but then a spell came over me and i let go
fate took my wand,and now i don't know where to go.
this happened more than once
but i fought hard
hard enough to win,hard enough to get what i want
but sad to say fate won once and it seems this time he won't accept defeat.
i'll let destiny pick.i'll let fate decide.i'll take my chances.i'll take the risk.
since i believe in destiny and fate
i'll just let it be,let it go it's way
but sad to say only one can rule
so now they're at war,fighting hard and strong
i'm their weapon,i'm their swords
their shields and armour,their blood and all.
i'm the one hurting,i'm the one getting lost
i'm also the one they both need to survive
their conflict becomes part of my life
i can't but do nothing at all.
i'll let destiny pick.i'll let fate decide.i'll take my chances.i'll take the risk.
but there's one thing i can do,use my chances take my risk.
a simple message is all it takes
but i'll risk our friendship,that's already at stake.
so for now i'll let them be at war cause i've got a hint
it's all for show
let see who becomes victorious
or maybe they'll both give up
return me that wand again
i'll rule my world,i'll rule it all
and still be fearless without you at all
but for now
i'll let destiny pick.i'll let fate decide.i'll take my chances.i'll take the risk.
I kinda feel bad about looking at your face today,it felt weird.
Like I said call me paranoid but somehow i feel you were forced to kinda be my friend...
Should I even be typing this out?What are the chances of you seeing this?Zero,it should be.You've got other girls to attend to aye.Or homework?Really?Your friends are free to talk to me.
After just looking at your picture on facebook I felt so restless...
But I thought,like I said,I will just get the last laugh soon,how I lost my mind just seeing you smile.
But then,something just got into me,right now,I feel like crying for you...again.
As if the first time wasn't bad enough,just cuddling up in bed and crying in silence.
I don't wanna be stupid and cry for some random guy I met.
I'm always praying for the day I forget you and say to myself how stupid I was.
But of course not completely forget you...you were nice,I guess,as a friend.
How should I put it?You were two completely different person
Nice,sweet,decent and then somewhat ignorant,unfeeling?Is that how I should put it?Or maybe again,is it just me?
Guess I take care of the details now that I'm crushing on you aye?
But hey,seriously,you were the first crush I cried over...
Ya' know how people say there's only one guy who's worth your tears?
I swear it's a play thing,I'd be over you soon,time erases everything!All the memories we had.Yea.Though I kinda miss them...
I guess a girl has weird mood swings.damn.
Now I'm sure I'll get over you in no time...well kinda,hopefully.
Man I had the best day with you today~
The day I finally slow down to see what's happening around society.Went to a school where kids with special needs studied and met the sweetest little boy ever.I swear I never thought he would be so sweet.
He wasn't the kind who screams and gets distracted easily just a normal little boy who acts a little younger than his age.
He is special,in a positive way!Just like every other kid,regular bubbly kid.I just thought I was in a childcare centre.
I hope I can see him again,after all I miss his screams and energy,a little boy I will never forget and I will want him in my memory always.
Yes,I had the best day with you today J.
Labels: children
back from HK and i'm not thrilled about it...weird.i miss HK!we didn't get to play the video for LSC so yeah,do i count that as a relief?haha
Day 1
arrival in HK and visiting Grand Century Plaza.was really nervous when i boarded the plane.
Day 2
going to LSC.i thought it'd be awkward at first cause it's a all boys' school....yeah but my class turns out to be really awesome.better than what my classmate got.i love it there.N you really made it fun for me,thank god you talked to me if not i would always be in an awkward position.K thanks for the textbook and talking during physics.i lost your teacher 30 secs after he talked...hehe.J,same thing thanks for talking to me^^oh and the students leader thanks for the tour especially A^^sharing session was one of the fun things that took place.i have got bad memory so i kinda forgot all the rest haha i could only remember the things that took place in LSC because that's where most of the friendships were made.
Day 3
LSC again somehow on the way there my stomach was in knots and my heart kept racing...haha maybe i couldn't wait to see what's gonna take place.haha.N you didn't tell me you had PE on tuesday!i was so unprepared!but thank god some of your classmates started to talk to me.oh and did i freak you out by leaving without you for class?haha i doubt so cause you saw me at sharing session^^haha.i'd freaked out if i were you.
Day 4
Sports day at LSC and went to MK.honestly MK was more fun then LSC for sharing session.haha.oh and i hope yall like the gifts
Day 5
outing at tai mei tuk or something.pity we couldn't eat your food i thought it was alright.haha.so sad it's the last day we are gonna be tgt:(so sad....
Day 6
Disneyland the whole day slept in....hehe nice day nice day^^
Day 7
day of departure so sad.ocean park was fun haha
ohmygosh~time flies so fast.i can't see yall anymore:(